Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Last night I thought about going to run with the Fleet Feet Run Club to meet some new friends, but they meet at 6:30 on a DARK trail, I didn't know if anyone would be there who ran my pace and I did not want my time with my family eaten up waiting. Instead on set out at about 5:45PM to run around my neighborhood.
-There is an influx of Halloween decorations, I took mental note of the houses I plan to AVOID with the Little Studs next Monday.
-Running when my dinner is not settled is GROSS..
-Smells of dryer exhaust, Dinner and wet leaves.
-I could see my breath but I did not feel cold
-The sun went down and it was dim, I could see my shadow in the Street signs when a car passed.
-There was a game on the field at the nearby High School, the scoreboard and lights gave me a feeling of nostalgia.
-My Knee felt horrible, every step was labored and painfull. I know I need to get it checked out, but I fear what the Dr. will say.
-I felt heavy...remembering a time when running felt "easy" I wish I could get to that level of fitness again.
-I SPRINTED up and down the hills, longing to feel SPEED. I played with SPEED during my run not able to hold it long.
-An Ambulance passed, and later a Firetruck, headed toward the High School, I prayed that all was OK.
-I also prayed for Harmony and her family, for Amanda and Chelsea...I feel helpless when my friends are struggling.
-It started to get dark, I looped around my neighborhood to get in 4 miles, then went home.
I NEEDED this solo run. To connect with my surroundings, my body, my thoughts.. Running is not easy right now. I feel heavy and I am in pain. My schedule is busy leaving little time for a consistent running schedule. I don't have any solid Running goals or plans. What I realized last night is that regardless of how HARD it is right now, one thing is certain.
I LOVE TO RUN!!!
And at the end of the day that is truly what matters..
A Runner Runs..
I don't need to worry about Pace.
I don't need to worry about my Weekly Mileage.
I don't have to stress about not having a Training Plan.
I don't need to have a race or BIG Event on the spectrum.
I don't need the pressure I just need to RUN, when I can and to love it...
Running Solo helped me come to this conclusion...